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Reply To: Hi – I'm a sociopath.

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Alaska
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As a BPD, when people are nice to me, I am nice to them. I involuntarily reflect how they treat me. If they are sweet to me, I am sweet to them. If they are mean to me, I am mean to them, and I hate this about myself! I’m really trying to be a better person. Seriously, I need better control. I will give someone the world if they are only kind to me, but if they are a jerk to me, I have a murderous rage within me, and am sorry to say that it is only because of medication that I have not got thru with my murderous rages. It scares me! It’s like someone inside of me whom I cannot control. Yet, I can be the most loving person you could ever meet!

And, I feel super remorseful, and regretful, and love deeply. I just feel everything way too deeply. Everything hurts so much.

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