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It sounds like you recognize the danger you are in, and how intense this spath’s hold on you is. Consider that he may have used hypnotic techniques on you, and preyed on your vulnerabilities to hook you. It sounds like you recognize that you are addicted and obsessed.
From what you describe he is a typical sociopath. He is a liar and a manipulator and he does not care about your well being. He will cause you more pain and more harm as long as you interact with him. There will not be a happy ending.
The best thing you can do for yourself is the most difficult thing for you to do, but it will save your life, your money, your career, your friendships, your physical and mental and spiritual health. This post describes how to have no contact with a dangerous person http://www.lovefraud.com/are-you-a-target/leaving-a-sociopath/no-contact/
You can find more information on ‘no contact’ by a Google search.
Consider making it a priority to have no contact of any kind with him. It will be very difficult due to the addiction he has created in you; but you will feel better sooner when you are not interacting with him which always creates more pain for you.
This guided relaxation recording designed for women ending relationships with pathological men helped me a lot. I listened to it every night for about a year, and it helped me deprogram the hypnotic suggestions my ex psychopath used to lure me and manipulate me. You can listen to a sample here: http://saferelationshipsmagazine.com/guided-relaxation-for-repairing-the-aftermath-of-pathological-love-relationships
Committing to no contact is difficult, but it is the best thing you can do for yourself. Getting away from someone who is harming you will result in you thinking clearly, getting yourself back again, and possibly saving your life.
Take good care of yourself, and let us know how things are going.