Reply To: 67 Days
The way you feel is normal and natural. It sounds like you are doing a great job keeping NC and working to get over the bad experience of his abuse, and to grieve the lost love you felt for him. Your sister sounds like a good supporter to you.
If you block him on your phone and everywhere else, avoid people who know him, and politely tell anyone who mentions to you what he’s doing or anything else about him that you’d rather not talk about him; you will not even know if he tries to make contact with you. Just knowing that he can’t email you or call or text, may remove a lot of that anxiety about him contacting you.