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How to protect yourself from sociopathic charm

Editor’s note: Lovefraud received the following article from a user whom we’ll call “Fiona.”

I’m currently being discarded. He has someone else lined up already, I found that out by reading his cellphone.

I have moved towns already and he may have been sleeping with other people on and off throughout our relationship. I have found “no contact” very difficult. However, I think after my last visit back to see him, I’ve reached a stage where the absolute pointlessness of it is impossible to ignore.

I know he has never cared for me. I don’t want to tell the details of my story, but rather to point out a couple of things that I’ve found to be lifelines out of this situation. I knew it was bad from about the third day in, but I spent 14 months labouring under the delusion that he was on the verge of a big change and that he would love me as I loved him.

Keeping protected

These things helped me stay in a position where I was able to keep myself protected from the effects of his charming:

  • Keep a place in your heart free from any kind of belief in anything he says. I wanted his gushing love-claims to be true, but I knew in my heart he was emotionally shallow and fickle. If you believe that he loves you – which is what you want – he has more manipulative power over you.
  • Do not get pregnant. He stated repeatedly that he wanted a child with me. He says this to every woman that he manages to draw in. I am certain that he would have no qualms about using a child to try to destroy me, or about destroying a child. No offence meant to anyone who has had children with a sociopath.
  • If you can, have either enough money to change tenancies, or family or other support to stay with when you need to physically remove yourself from his reach, or the temptation to stay in touch with him.
  • Read sites like Lovefraud to help you recognise the person for what he is. Follow the sirens wailing in your heart – no, it’s not you being crazy, he really is hurting you that much, and he really is doing it on purpose.
  • Lean on your religion or spiritual belief and don’t let go of it. This guy claimed to love God and to be a “special person” in God’s plan. He then abused my religion randomly and repeatedly. Stick with your belief.
  • Don’t get involved in sexual swinging or multiple partners. If the spath you meet is anything like the one I met, he’s been there and he would be perfectly happy to drag you down any way he can, this way is fine, just as good as any other. I’m not judging this choice, but I am saying that to do these things with a sociopath is a recipe for disaster.
  • Don’t get involved in drug or alcohol use with the sociopath. These people do not have a conscience and destroying you with drugs or alcohol is meaningless to them.
  • The day you understand what he is, keep growing a place inside yourself that knows you will walk away one day. If at first you don’t succeed – normal. Don’t give up on your ability to do this.

Step by step

Nothing new in any of this, I know. But this is how I managed to extricate myself, step by step, from someone I had fallen in love with, who I desperately hoped and wished would do the same once his “wounds were healed,” but who, in reality, has probably always hated me. Certainly, he couldn’t care less about me if he tried.

And, tell yourself until you start to believe it that he is not capable of loving anyone. It isn’t just you, he will do the same thing again and he has done the same thing in the past. These people are not normal and do not feel like you or I feel.

They are actors. The charm can be so astounding, you’re practically blinded by the glory. Acting and probably the high testosterone?

You want more

Praise the day you realise you want more from a sexual relationship – ie, loving, caring, sharing, togetherness. He cannot ever go to this place with you, except as an actor. This is one pathway out. Focus on that feeling and know it’s real and you are capable of so much more that is real – as are other “normal” people.

Keep yourself safe. You are the number one priority here because the person is disordered; you cannot have a caring/sharing, two-way relationship with this person. Put as much effort as you can into trusting your own mind and instincts, and emotionally and mentally preparing to stop seeing this person.

This information is probably better suited to people who have not made a formal commitment or moved in together.

Hope it helps someone out there, as this site and others like it helped me to see what was real in a very confusing and manipulative situation.

Anon.

Healing is my job

Last but not least, yes, it hurts. It hurts like hell. Why me? Why does he hate me? When he seems to genuinely like her, and her, and her? Why?

Because he’s a freak of nature, that’s why. Because hurting gives him the most pleasure anything can. Because you are normal, loving, caring, kindhearted. Because he is none of these things. Because you crossed paths. It’s not your fault. He can never heal the hurt he’s given you.

That, for me, is the hardest thing to fully realise – he will never make it better. That’s my job. Once you get out of the hurting/healing dynamic and find the courage to live with the fact that he never heals what he hurts, he just picks at it and irritates it and causes you more pain and agitation, you have taken a big step.

 



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  1. surprised says:

    Och, he has called. Second time, actually. Last time I gave him a blasting, this time, was it a chat for three minutes? He’s calling again tomorrow with the results of his STD test, apparently. That’s very caring, isn’t it!
    After I got off the phone from him, I felt all glowy, for a moment. I have definitely been missing the sex.
    Someone posted on another thread about how immature they are. I guess that that is ultimately true. I also think that it’s the part of me that would love to just drop out of society, that finds the grind of adulthood a bit of a drag, an unrewarding drag, that responds to him with quite a lot of delight – when he’s not being abusive. That feeling decreases constantly though, as I’m forced to deal with more and more of his shit, and the good times wane. Also, some of his garbage is beyond the pale to me and I could barely face that it existed in him at all, let alone “deal” with it. It was too hideous, to anti-human, too hateful, to be real. But it was real. But, then you think, did I just get my wires crossed, or?
    I know I can’t go back to him. I know that. I cannot. I want more. I want to meet someone where we can face reality together, rather than run away from it into a world we would prefer – or, preferably a mix, I suppose. Many people want a degree of autonomy in life, and I am one of them.
    It’s the sex, I so, so badly want to just travel to where he is and have the wicked way with each other, and somehow be protected from all the other crap, but it can’t happen like that, it never happens like that in life, besides which, I’m not a robot. I’ve given up on every other aspect of his personality, I simply don’t believe a word he says anymore. So, it is over, isn’t it. You can’t go on like that.
    The sex and to be held and feel love, there were so many times when I still believed, that I felt so good with him. Now I don’t believe anymore, it’s just freakin hard that the whole thing is gone!



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  2. surprised says:

    Ha ha, lol. What if his dick fell off? And I was stuck with him? Oh, dear. How deep is my love? I feel like the rose coloured glasses are well and truly off, so, I see him now, and if he is as he is, changing incredibly unlikely, what if he got hit by a bus tomorrow and was in a wheelchair? (sorry to anyone in this situation, I have read posts here from people who have physical disabilities). What if every day I came home from work to a guy who’s spent the day drinking and smoking grass, looking at porns or sitting on the street watching girls in school uniforms walk by? And, no sex. Who says, when I walk in the door, hey, I love you, followed by, but I hate the Pope!! Okay!
    Ah, yes. I think this might be part of the reason NC works. It just starts you off again, doesn’t it? Having a tiny little chat. I want to go to Bermuda or something. How far is far enough.



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  3. surprised says:

    Dammit! He still has me! I WANT to see him! AAAAARGGHHH!!! How is that possible!!!
    Ok. As much as I appreciate LF, it’s time for me to cook my dinner and watch an exciting DVD.
    So now I’m a crack addict. I think I get that. My GOD. I will never look down my nose at drug addicts ever again.



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  4. Brigitte Knowles says:

    Mine called me baby and I had never been called baby before. I fell for the sound and feeling it gave me. Then I heard him repeat the term to anyone and everyone. One day, just like that, I realized it was a term for anyone and everyone. But before that, it worked, it was like a spell, when I heard that word, I melted. Then much later I realized the hypnotic power psychopaths have over you. I am better now, four years later. Their charm is overwhelming. Beware and stay away from it or you will be trapped in a spiral downwards from which you cannot escape. Call it mind control, call it hypnosis but call it and get away!



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    • VictimOfFemale says:

      Brigitte,

      Mine called me “baby”, also. She is a serpent of the highest order. I’m glad you are four years removed from that situation. I am only 6 months from that “special day” when Google led me to “signs you might be dating a psychopath”….

      She tells all one thousand Facebook “friends” AND all co-workers that she has NO man in her life, lives alone with her THREE kids (from 3 diff fathers), and can’t make ends meet. ALL LIES. She drew me in with her masterful lies and charisma throughout most of 2014. We went on 3 fraudulent “dates” this time one year ago. She even went to a parade with my own MOTHER to gain my trust even more. I ended up buying her a 2013 loaded sedan for over 20 grand which, I found out later, she promptly drove straight home to home to her husband of 10 years.

      I’m now suffering from PTSD, taking anti-dep’s, and am having a VERY hard time with it. Please tell me the truth. Are you the same after 4 years as you were before? My doc says I might NEVER be the same again. I feel like my soul has been poisoned.



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